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Created on: 09/05/11 07:35 PM Views: 1091 Replies: 9
Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 7:35 PM

OK, so I tried my best to stay vegan for most of the day but then I just ended up eating leftovers from the party and a wedding I went to on Sunday that weren't vegan. I binge eat a lot, and when I do it's usually non-vegan stuff. I wish the Kickstart had started after the holiday, but there it is.

I had such high hopes for today, when I woke up I had my day all planned out then my aunt invited us all over for dinner and I lost control.

I can't have certain foods around me or I just eat them. It's horrible, because I want to be vegan so bad and I was in 2008-2009 for about 1.5 years then it all went to hell in 2010 when I started cheating like mad and for the past year my weight has been spiraling out of control as a result.

Now I am so out of shape I can hardly do any kind of exercise to lose weight for more than 20 minutes and any time I cut back even the tiniest bit on my food portions I binge. Ugh.

Just ranting here, I don't think there is any real solution to my problems…

~fadedstar

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 8:01 PM

00faded0star00 wrote:

Just ranting here, I don't think there is any real solution to my problems… ~fadedstar

Hi fadedstar - I think the first step to a solution is to give yourself a break! You did your best. Tomorrow is another day! Someone here has a motto "Progress not perfection".

This is a great forum for ranting and being heard. Hang in there and celebrate every bite that is vegan (not just focusing on the bites that aren't)

Cheers! Very Happy

Mariberry

All we are saying is "Give Peas a Chance"

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 9:51 PM

Hang in there! I am also a binge eater. I have been working on it my entire life. But at least, I tell myself that is, it isn't drugs or alcohol.

Always offer kindness and a soft word to the beings around you; You do not know their journey. Your words can be the hug they need or the shove that breaks them.

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 10:40 PM

Hi,
I'm a binge eater, too, and a precariously-recovering bulimic and anorexic, also formerly very overweight.

I understand, and I am very similar. I've binged many, many times on non-vegan foods, even though my commitment to veganism is strong in my heart. I tell myself that I will never do it again, that I'm going to be 100% pure... and then I do it again and hate myself for it.

Something I'm learning lately is that part of the problem is that black-and-white thinking. For me, I have to stop thinking of it as good-and-bad eating, or as morally superior vs. inferior. Be gentle with yourself. You are a sweet, loving, emotional being who is trying to do good in the world – sometimes that is enough. You are not a bad person for binging. You are not a bad person for being not-vegan for a time. Making one mistake does not need to lead to an all-out gorging. When we make a mistake with food, we want to avoid the guilt, and therefore eat more to make the pain go away. This faulty reasoning is what gets us into trouble in the first place.

Anyhow... we're here for you. We understand.

Molly Horn

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 10:47 PM

Well said Molly! To the OP, you can make tomorrow your Day 1. No one is gonna take names! Laughing

Pam
(Who actually had to shove a frozen Red Velvet cake down the disposal today so it would not call my name. Also have gotten other non-vegan temptations out of the house...)

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 11:35 PM

Yes this is the best place to rant and to get support. You are not a bad person because you eat a certain or not. And as someone said "Be gentle with yourself.
I to have the same issues. And I to have cried after stuffing myself. But I am learning to and know that the nicer we are to ourselves the better we do.
We are here for you. As so many have been here for me.
Hang in there. And keep doing the best you can.
Hugs.
Smile

aleta

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RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Monday, September 5, 2011 at 11:37 PM

Mollyhorn, thank you again for your great support here. Your words here touched me too and I feel so much better.
Thank you for being here. Smile

aleta

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RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Tuesday, September 6, 2011 at 3:50 AM

I came home from work tonight, ate dinner (veggie cassarole with black beans and brown rice)and I am not currently hungry. Actually I feel pleasantly full but not bloated. Yet not long ago I found myself looking in the pantry to see what else there was to eat. I really wanted / want something sweet like chocolate or cookies. Two things have saved me -
1. all of the foods I dont want to eat over the next three weeks are out of the house. I would physically have to get in the car and drive to a store to get something.
2. I decided to come and check the kickstart page. I like to read all the posts even if I dont join in and make a comment. Finding this thread tonight was the best timing to make me think about how I sometimes eat for the sake of eating not for sustinance or fuel. No more (hopefully)

Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food - Hippocrates.

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Tuesday, September 6, 2011 at 3:38 PM

Thanks, I needed that!

RE: Labor day challenges, etc…
Posted Wednesday, September 7, 2011 at 2:31 PM

Thanks guys - I have been trying to get out of the house so I don't binge. Also, I am planning my meals/snacks spaced out so I don't have a gap of 6-7 hours (or more) with no food.

As for the tossing of non-vegan food, I live with my omni parents so I guess if I just mentally label their food theirs and my food mine and then occupy myself with something non-food like a crossword puzzle or a bath between meals that is better than wandering the kitchen aimlessly.

I had a 'going vegan'/weight loss blog that I started many moons ago - perhaps I should pick it up again or start a new one just to occupy my time…

Anyway, thanks again for your support. I will be keeping you guys posted on this forum as to my progress. Today was my Day 1, fingers crossed… Wink

~fadedstar


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